Every time I start doing Amy Dixon’s Breathless Body (or any other extremely challenging workout) I am amazed at my past self’s ability to finish it and I rely on those accomplishments to push through when thoughts of self-doubt rear their ugly heads. If you are not familiar with this specific training, it has 8 Tabata style drills. Amy miscounts the first one (air jacks) and there are 9 working sets of 20 seconds with 10 seconds of rest in between. By the end of it, you feel absolutely spent (if you have really pushed yourself) – and that’s only the beginning! Yet, I have always been able to finish all of the 8 different drills (8 x 8 x 20 seconds work + 10 seconds rest) without extra breaks.
I guess I just wanted to take the time today to acknowledge this and feel proud. I very often take for granted whatever I achieve. I feel like it’s not a big deal and probably anyone could do it. And while that might be true (although highly unlikely, as in this very specific instance I go for almost all the drills with the most advanced option out of the three), the difference is that not everyone DOES it.
I take it for granted that I work out regularly, and I feel really guilty whenever I miss a day like yesterday. That is so silly though! Most people rarely do anything, and while it is certainly different to be surrounded by conscious people who are taking care of themselves versus by lazy folks, I can’t lose sight of the fact that I am doing well in that department, and shouldn’t feel inferior to others.
My diet has been slipping back to some bad old habits though, leading to exceeding my caloric target for more days than I would like… One thing to be proud of though is that I used to avoid these confrontations with myself. Whenever I ate more, I just felt guilty but wasn’t able to bring myself and calculate the actual “damage” I have done. I just went into ostrich mode and put my head in the sand. Now I force myself to assess my consumption so that I could come up with some viable solutions.
Awareness is the foundation for any change but is also the scariest step sometimes – and I am constantly improving in this area. Yay me! 🙂